somewhere in Barbados....

UNFAIR!!! pupunta sa boracay parents tapos hindi ako kasama... badtrip!!!  madaya! haha!

a sad birthday....

loser.
blank.
down.
stoned.
dead.

tears.

hahaha! panalo kami kanina.... 39- 30 ata yung score... 
sana magtuloy-tuloy yung winning streak namin...haha!

salamat nga pala sa lahat ng mga nanuod nung game....tnx!

wahaha...panalo kami kanina.... 41-27 yung score...  it was a good start for our team considering na hindi pa kami ganun ka-close... i had fun... hehe! =) i'm just hoping na throughout the season eh ok lahat ng games namin....and sana sa MISA team ko eh ok rin... makakablend-in kaya kami ni elie sa S3? haha!

shoutouts to avie and jc...thanks  for the cheer!!!

Must Have

Your gravity pulls me
Depravity feeds me
MY destiny leads me
To you, to you

My feelings have grown now
These feelings that somehow
Reveals itself so loud
To you, to you

And i am breathin’ hard
Looking for the sound of my soul
And i am breathin’ hard
Looking for the taste of something beautiful

Cause you’re a must have
A must have
I must have you now
You’re a must have (I must have you now)
A must have
I must have you now

You spin me all around
I’m upside down, I’m inside out
I wanna get so close to you
But i’m so far away

And i got the microphone
I tell you something you already know
I look for you in the broad daylight
You look for me in the darkest night

I look for you in the broad daylight
I look for you in the darkest night
You taste so sweet on the tip of my tongue

I look for you in the brightest day
I look for you and i want to say
Your words are sweet on the tip of my tongue

And everything is done

shape shifter

I can hear your conscience fall apart
As I start to feel lonesome
I can feel the walls start to close in on me,
Maybe I can make you want to drown
As I stare into your soul
Can the present make it all turn mean?

And if I fall,
May the high place bring me down…

I’ll never need a
I’ll never need a
I’ll never need a
Another sign
No I’ll never need a
I’ll never need a
I’ll never need another lie...

colourway

Painful dream to lose my sleep in,
And I wonder where safety is,
In a newfound state of blindness,
I alone bereave the dark

Killing the time,
I bring it back to life,
With every tear that falls and falls and falls
And falls and falls
I let go of
I let go of another line
I leave it behind
The will to redefine,
With every thought that rains upon this lonely night
I let go of,
Your failure to be mine..

A sense of irony,
As I pick myself up,
Am I big enough to let the feeling stop,
I’ll let go
I’ll let go I say to you,
Someone get me new shoes

And the wounds don’t heal
The wounds don’t heal…

galing kay dominique...

HOW EMO ARE YOU?

[ ] I like skinny jeans.
[x] Music is life.
[x] I write poetry/song lyrics.
[ ] My hair covers part of my face.
[x] I wear band shirts.
[x] I know who Jeffree Star is.
[x] I wear/wore converse.
[ ] I wear/wore vans.
[ ] I wear/wore eyeliner.
[ ] I have/had my lip pierced.
[x] I listen to Saves The Day, Emanual and Saliva.


Total = 6

[x] I'm in a band.
[ ] My screen name had an x in it.
[x] I like My Chemical Romance.
[ ] I also like Green Day.
[x] I know what "mosh" means.
[x] I sit in corners.
[ ] I hate MTV.
[ ] I take pictures of myself a lot.
[ ] Especially ones where you can’t see my whole face.


Total = 4


[x] I am lost without a CD player/my iPod/mp3.
[ ] I have/had thick rimmed glasses.
[ ] I love to skate.
[x] I hate the president.
[ ] I have/had a mohawk.
[ ] I`ve worn black nail polish.
[ ] I like Slipknot.
[ ] I hate where I live.
[x] Black is a great color.

Total: 3


[x ] Right now I am listening to music.
[x] MySpace
[x] Hot Topic doesn`t scare me.
[ ] I wear/wore studded belts.
[ ] I`ve cried while listening to Hawthorne Heights.
[ ] For girls: I have madeout with another.
[ ] For guys: I have worn girls jeans.
[ ] I have dyed my hair black.
[x] I cry a lot.
[x] I write on myself.
[ ] I`ve been called emo before.

Total = 5

OVER ALL TOTAL = 18
Multiply your answers by 3.
Re-post this as "I`m __ % emo."

I AM 54% emo.

Yeah right.

I fucking hate Emo. badtrip!!!!

Post Rock, Alternative, Ambient music is THE WAY TO GO!!!

wahahaha!!! i got my credit card and atm card back...thanks mom! .... pero may condition.  Next time pag nagexceed ulit ako sa credit limit eh she wiil take my card daw for good... badtrip kasing gitara yan eh sobrang mahal.... 16,800... wala tuloy akong credit card for 1 month... pero ok lng... worth it naman... 
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ang cool ng house namin... andaming bago... meron kaming bagong plasma tv... 36" sya tapos merong bagong phone na touchscreen..meron din 2 bagong maid... tapos ginagawa yung cr ko....1 week lng akong nawala andami nang nangyari...
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someone texted me kanina pero hindi ko alam kung sino....wala sya sa contacts ko... "Are you missing someone?"  yung text....weird... naicip ko na sobrang daming tao/ bagay yung namimiss ko....
i miss my dad...
i miss my band... (5 months ako maghihintay)awwww!!!  offline muna ang mindrush...
i miss mia, jess,cob, pam, sel,domz, jana,arts,aian, chinkee, steph, rai, joe, tricia, patty etc.... kahit yung iba eh kahapon ko huling nakita.. miss ko na agad sila...haha!
i miss going to circus... miss ko na yung mga COOL na tao dun...  that means na hindi kasama yung mga AMP people....wahahaha!!! peace!
i miss school... kahit na maraming kelangan gawin...
i miss my dogs...
i miss playing basketball...
i miss my jackass adventures....haha!  
i miss my old phone...
i miss watching F1... go mclaren! sana makanuod ako ng malaysian grand prix ng live next year....
i miss malaysia...
i miss thailand....
i miss hongkong...
i miss singapore....
i miss my bestfriend....
i miss
i miss
i miss
i miss you....

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[erase] sobrang badtrip ako last last week... sobrang emo ko nun... isa lng yung reason ng pagiging down ko... pero i cant blame you coz sobrang tagal na nung sa atin... may bigla lang akong naalala nung umupo ka sa table....

gusto ko matuto magpiano.... may alam ako pero basic chords lang.... nakakainggit  yung vocalist ng up dharma down eh.. si armi millare.... sobrang galing nya magpiano... ganda pa ng boses.... mag lessons kaya ako? haha!

nagpractice kami kanina sa circus... saya2 sobra! productive yung practice namin,..haha! may bagong song na naman si pei2 tapos meron na agad lyrics si pao... nkakatawa si airone kasi na-intimidate sya sa kamikaze na nagpractice before us.... haha! tapos after namin eh spongecola saka dicta license yung next na magprapractice... wow! parang ka-level na namin sila...haha! joke lng! 
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natuluyan na.... magugulo na naman block namin.... kasi naman hindi nakinig sa akin eh... sabi ng iba ugali nya eh saka hindi talaga kyo bagay....haha! hay! sana maayos...pero feeling ko hindi na...

last week...
sobrang walang kwenta yung week ko last week kasi ba naman thursday pa lang eh wala na akong money...hay! nkakaawa ako! haha! buti na lng may nagpautang sa akin...tnx! super!....

saturday....
after ng accounting namin dumaan kami sa circus tapos nanunuod ng auditions ng AMP... may isang band na magaling...babae yung drummer nila... ok sya pumalo para sa isang babae...habang pinapanood ko sila eh naalala ko yung audition namin dati... naalala ko yung pagpiyok ni cob... haha! nkakatawa talaga yun...
after nung auditions eh nagpasundo agad ako sa drvier namin... knockout agad ako sa car...zZzZzZzZ... 
nagulat ako pagdating ko sa bahay kasi dumating na pala si ate and kuya moy galing malaysia...haha! hindi ko man lang alam na dadating pala sila...haha! huli na naman ako sa balita... 

sunday...
bday ni jem... wala akong gift! haha! babawi na lng ako next time... nagpunta ako sa house nila kuya... andaming food... yumyum! haha! pero konti lang kinain ko kasi konti lng naman talaga ako kumain eh.... masarap pala magdrive pag-1am sa NLEX... sobrang konti lng ng car na dumadaan... parang freeway... nag140 ako.. pero natakot ako kasi hndi ko na macontrol saka baka mahuli ako kasi may speed radar ang NLEX... tapos knockout agad....zZzZzZzZ....

monday...
dumating si mommy galing states....3 months sila dun ng dad ko pero nagstay pa dad ko kasi hindi pa tapos yung work niya ... sobrang namiss ko si mommy...awww! haha! love you mom!  sobrang asar daw siya kasi 4 times na-delay yung flight nya...   nagdinner kami sa krocodille grille sa trinoma... dami ulit food... yumyum! konti pa lang pala yung mga bukas na stores sa trinoma kaya hndi ko masyadong na-appreciate yung mall...haha! 

tuesday...
boring.... boring.... boring!!!!

wednesday...
nanlibre si va sa yellow cab kasi bday nya... halos buong block pumunta pati jta (  jas, paolo, pei2, jc, airone, edrich, elie, nicole, avie, denise, monique, cathy)  ... sobrang gulo namin sa yellow cab... parang gusto na kami paalisin...haha!  tapos badtrip... ako yung last na natalo sa dare... so kinain ko yung ice cream na may pepper, salt, chili oil saka hot sauce..yuck sobrang kadiri yung lasa...haha!  pero ok lng...masaya naman,...haha! 
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nakakatawa si avie saka si jc.... hindi pa nga sila eh nagaayaw na...haha! tawa kami ng tawa ni jasper ska paolo...wahahaha!  kasi naman hindi na natututo... ayaw kasi makinig...

wala talagang kwenta T-Th classes ko... badtrip! sobrang bored ako kanina sa MIS... mas lalo na sa history... asar! boring! boring! boring!

mga ginawa ko kanina:
1. nag-signup sa FAS (Freelance Art Society) at na-meet ko si Tricia Gosingtian aka slumberdoll saka yung iba pang artist na kasali sa FAS...
2. naghintay hanggang 3:30 kina pao and pei2 para magpareserve ng studio para sa practice sa thursday.
3. tumambay kasama ng mga taga-AMP sa may faura...  wala talagang kwenta ang AMP...wahahaha!
4. naglaro ng armored core sa faura...
5. natulog sa sec benches habang naghihintay sa mga ka-block ko...nap lng...
6. pumunta sa circus kasama sina pao, pei2 and jasper...
7. inasar si pei2 sa car kasi nakita namin si nicole sarmiento aka BC na crush nya...wahaha!
8. nabadtrip sa traffic sa katipunan....
9. kumain sa chiggy's...
10. at natulog ulit....knockout...zZzZzZzZ...

i promise to never say bad words...
1st step to clean living...

miss ko na mag band practice buti na lng nagyaya si pao kanina... sa thursday daw...sana naman matuloy... may bagong drummer... si airone... wala na si va...haha! kasi aalis na sya.... sana ok pumalo si airone... may bago rin daw song pero hindi ko pa naririnig... gawa ni pao n pei2...

miss ko na rin yung isang band ko... 
hindi ko namimiss yung isa pang band ko....haha! wala lng...hndi ko lng sila trip....

just because my eyes don't tear doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry.. and just because i come out strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.. often i choose to pretend i'm happy so i don't have to explain myself to people who would never even understand.. smiling has always been easier than explaining why i'm sad...

tears.....
long time since the last...

now happy with how things are going...

katawa si jeremy (pamangkin ko) kanina...kasi may football game sila after nung CS150 ko kaya agad2 akong pumunta sa football field ng grade school... nkakatawa syang tumakbo...haha! antaba kasi...tabachoy!!! tpos nakakatawa din yung mga classmates nya kasi napakacorny nila... kasi meron silang joke kay harry potter... harry BUTTER daw si harry potter... ang corny dba??? pero tawa ako ng tawa kahit napakawalang kwenta nung joke... parang ka-age ko lng sila... haha! tapos nakakatawa rin yung mga goalkeeper nila kasi ba naman 5 sila sa harap ng goal... pano ba naman makakascore yung kalaban pag ganun? nanalo yung team ni jem... 3-1 yung score...
 
nakakinggit si jem kasi grade 6 pa lng sila eh football na yung pe nila.unfair. kasi nung nasa notre dame ako eh 3rd year  pa yung football class namin...  gusto ko pa naman matuto dati ng football...daya talaga ng ateneo...haha!
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may feeling ako na magkakagulo-gulo na naman yung block namin... sana naman huwag....kasi naman hndi na natuto eh... 

i'm hoping for the best... just hoping nothing happens... 
a bit surprised but i was expecting it...
good luck...
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I've been so lazy lately...
stressed...
drained...
stoned...
annoyed by how my sem started... sana mabago....
everything is messed up... must fix it....
messed up chances...
there's something wrong...
blurry...obscure...vague....
been thinking a lot lately...
still don't know what to prioritize...
still don't know what to do...
still confused about what songs i should listen to... labo!!!
carpenters, cyndi lauper, avril lavigne, michelle branch, vanessa carlton, norah jones
VS
saosin, dead poetic, underoath, panic!, urbandub
ano ba yan??? halo2 na... different genres... nkaaasar...

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies shes been fed
Is it in you now,
To barely hear the truth that you have spoken?
She's searching for no one (but herself)
Her eyes turned green and she seems to be happy that she is her
And this time I think you'll know
this would be the last....goodnight....n.a.

hay! tapos na rin ang summer... vacation na... kahit  2 weeks lng eh ok na rin yun... kaya dapa sulitin... dapat walang masayang na araw... 

nung saturday eh nagpunta yung family ko sa tagaytay... kaya lang wala parents ko... hay!sayang... 7:00 kami umalis ng bahay... half nung trip tulog ako... kasi puyat  at late ako umuwi the night before...the other half nung trip eh naglalaro lng kami ni jem ng PS2... nakakahilo... sobra! tapos traffic pa sa slex... nagstay kami sa towhouse namin... rest ng konti... tpos diresto na sa clubhouse...  then we ate our lunch....nag-buffet kami worth 350 php... ok yung food...andami pero nakakasawa... after lunch puro sports yung ginawa namin.... nagbadminton kami... 2 games lng...natalo kami ni kuya... haha! lagi naman eh... andaya ksi ni ate saka ni kuya moy eh....haha! after ng badminton nagtennis naman kami... hay! talo na naman ako ni kuya... 6-1.... puro talo na lng ako.. hay!asar...loser ko talaga... after ng tennis nagswimming naman ako with my nephew and nieces (jem, kirsten and audrey),,,, ako yng tagabantay sa kanila kasi naman nagbowling sina ate, kuya, kuya moy and ate ayie... ako lng yung naiwan....  walang kwnta...wala na naman akong nakita... haha! after nung swimming umui na kmi ...0 visibility pala ang tagaytay pag-gabi... sobrang foggy ..... then kumain sa shang ng dinner...tapos nagpadrop ako sa condo.... tapos knockout nko....zZzZzZzZzZzZzZ....

isang pagmumuni habang pauwi... ok pala ang jazz saka bossa nova... ngaun ko lng naappreciate yung ganung genre.... i realized that jazz is marked by intricate, propulsive rhythms, polyphonic ensemble playing, improvisatory, virtuosic solos, melodic freedom, and a harmonic idiom ranging from simple diatonicism through chromaticism to atonality. w0w...